The next step

Thanks to everyone for thier advice. It's time like this I realize who my real freinds are and how many I am lucky to have - so thank you!! Big hugg!!!

Aheam...

What I've decided - after a soul searching day wandering around my favorite places in Manhattan and buying myself a cute handbag to cheer myself up....is this...

I'm going to call my family's GP tomorrow - I say my family's doctor because I haven't been to a DR in years - this is the guy who treats my mom and brother - and who took care of my Dad - so i know he's a good dude. I'm going to ask him to recommend a neurosurgeon - then I'm going to that guy - with my CAT Scan results - and have him read it. I am still convinced that Dr Kervokian either read my chart wrong or had me mixed up with someone else. BUT...in the terrible event that I do have Brain Lemonade - this legitamate Neurologist would tell me. If there is nothing wrong I'm sure he would tell me as well because he's not trying to scam any auto insurance company out of money.

So if I do have Brain Lemonade the only treatment is having a straw stuck in my brain to drain the fluid and I've already decided that is not happening. Brain surgery is so tricky that if you make even the most miniscule mistake th patient could wind up Butternut Squash or some other sort of vegetable. I've come to terms with the fact that if I have Brain Lemonade I will not want to have the surgery - which is basically like giving myself a death sentence...it's not a decision I'm making lightly. Then, knowing I'm going to go into convulsions and drop dead at any moment - I'm going to move to England and live out what little of my life is left somewhere happy like Birmingham.

So yeah - thats about it - and watch this space for more updates as they develop - or as my skull expands.