Crap

Ok I've made all the jokes, including saying I was getting a tattoo of the kool aid man – but seriously – I got my second opinion today. I brought the actual CAT scan film into a neurologist who I was referred to by my primary care physician and….

I have hydrocephalus. The doctor explained to me that there is probably an obstruction and I'm going to go for an MRI to find out where the obstruction is. Also he said based on the pattern of the results, this is a condition I'VE HAD FOR YEARS. I asked if it was life threatening, he said no, and that was all I needed to hear so I'm not hysterical. It is a bit unsettling to learn that I've been walking around with this brain condition for a good chunk of my life and didn't even know about it. I'll admit that sometimes I do feel dizzy when I look up for too long but I always thought it was because of my googly eyes- its probably because of the extra pressure on my brain.

So that's the update – I've scheduled an MRI. Based on the results of the MRI we'll determine what actions to take. I highly doubt I really need a silly straw put in my head – that is only for extrememe cases. However I might have to go for surgery to remove the obstruction – unless the obstruction itself is in my head and I AM NOT HAVING SURGERY ON MY FUCKING BRAIN…especially if it's not a life or death thing. I'll find out if this obstruction may cause problems later on in life based on the results from the MRI.

I keep saying that although this news is pretty bad, it could all be a fucking hell of a lot worse – so I'm not going to walk around saying "OH my god my life is over" because its not that big a fucking deal.