The first one happened back in July after two back to back nights of staying up really late working for bands. I got dropped off at my house at like 1 am and went right to sleep. About two hours after I had went to bed, i was suddenly wide awake and terrified. My mom was standing at the foot of my bed and in a very calming voice she told me to calm down, that i had a bad dream, and to try to go back to sleep. I didn't have a night mare - in fact I still remember I was dreaming about going shopping or something mundane. My mom had told me she ran into my room because she heard my screaming like I was being killed or something. I was shaking - like I had just gotten into a fight or was PREPARED to fight - thats how i felt - pumped up with adrenaline. I was too scared and confused and decided to do some online research. I typed "wake up screaming" into google and came up with some death metal lyrics, then eventually found the Night terror resource site. For those of you too lazy to click the link, night terrors are:
Night terrors occur during a phase of deep non-REM sleep usually within an hour after the subject goes to bed. This is also known as stage 4. During a night terror, which may last anywhere from five to twenty minutes, the person is still asleep, although the sleepers eyes may be open. When the subject does wake up, they usually have no recollection of the episode other than a sense of fear. This, however, is not always the case. Quite a few people interviewed can remember portions of the night terror, and some remember the whole thing.
so yeah - THAT.... then no incident for months. Then in December when i was diagnosed with head trauma this shit started again - and a lot more frequently. At one point last month I had an entire week of getting up in the middle of the night. I attributed it to stress. The last time before last night i felt like someone (a woman?) was trying to drag me off my bed by my right leg. I woke up screaming, terrified, and my leg was swollen and throbbing. could be because I stand on my feet for most of the day at work.
Then Last night I woke up screaming about two hours after I went to sleep. My brother was watching a porno in the living room and I heard him go, "What the hell is that?" but my mom had told him about my "problem" and he knew not to come in to disturb me. Again I woke up all shaken, pumped with adrenaline, and I had all this ....I just started crying. IT just all came out - everything. The medical problems, everything - I just started bawling -and I didn't want to - I wanted to go back to sleep - I had to be up for work in a few hours! But I couldn't go to sleep. I surfed the 'net for a little bit, played a few games of solitaire, then told myself I HAD TO GO THE FUCK TO SLEEP.
This is getting fucking ridiculous now - but I wouldn't be surprised if this all has to do with the brain deformity and if i wasn't fucking scared before...
On the plus side...
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